I figured I’d jump on the bandwagon with this #10yearchallenge and share my little glow up with you guys. Honestly, this is more of a #6yearchallenge for me because I can’t find any pictures from before 2013.
well here she is, 2013 Destiny in all her glory.
The day of my high school graduation. It’s hard for me to even look at this picture. I don’t recognize this girl anymore. Just two months from the time this picture was taken I would make the worst decision of my life (continuing an affair with my high school English teacher). And just six months later I was pregnant (for the second time), and shortly after I was healing physically and emotionally from an ended pregnancy and a toxic relationship.
I have no idea that the next two and a half years would be the most trying times of my life. I left abusive relationship after abusive relationship. And when someone else wasn’t abusing me I was abusing myself. I was smoking a pack of cigarettes a day and was completely dependent on drugs and alcohol to function. I wore too much makeup and straightened my hair too often.I spent days laying on my floor crying. I was riddled with anxiety and self hatred. I honesty can’t remember a day I didn’t want to die.
I want to make it very clear that I’m not sharing this to gain pitty. I’m sharing this because I’m in complete awe of how far I’ve come. Like I said, I don’t even recognize the girl in that picture, she’s gone and I couldn’t be happier with that.
Honestly I look back on these days fondly. I truly wouldn’t be the woman I am today without these experiences. These years taught me so much about self preservation, and most importantly self love. I didn’t know what I was capable of back then. I doubted myself way too often, but I’ll never make that mistake again.
This is 2019 Destiny. A self love goddess. A woman who know exactly who she is. A mother, a daughter, a wife, a friend, a truly happy person.
Before I go, I’d like to share a quote that I live.
“You are your greatest project. Your relationship with self will be the most fulfilling thing you ever pour love into. When we pour our love into ourselves we then flow into the other relationships and connections in our life. Without filling ourselves first we are trying to give what we don’t even have. We can become resentful, bitter, and not in our highest self. You are here to love but it must start with you.”
I’m all for personal growth and development so share your 10 year glow up with me on Instagram.